Working on studies, but not too hard

Now having prelim 1 period. Feel half confident only, hardly studied, but at least I did put some effort, I blame my laziness and not the fact that I got a new computer to test and play previously unplayable games.

Long time no updates anyway. Weee, nothing much to update since all I've been doing is playing and playing etc. I think that I'm just too carefree to do anything untill it urgently needs to be done, this is surely a hard step to get what I like.


Recently, I was asked a question which I had somehow forgotten about long ago.
Whats your progress on that one thing?

No plan, no step taken.

Not good. Not bad too. I wish that I would just make up my mind and hope that I will cross paths with a treasure that I can dig up.

I'm Back

During my absence I have discovered a profound thing that is complex yet simple, difficult to conceptualise yet easily understood.

I'm rather screwed for prelims. Time to actually produce another one of my studying miracles

I'm going off to malaysia again

Well, I guess there goes any chance of me playing field soccer lol! Just when tp holiday starts I need to go to Malaysia again.

Date of leaving: Early afternoon: 10th June 2008
Returning: Evening: 16th June 2008

Well. I hope I have better luck studying in malaysia. I managed to waste my life away on games for a whole week. Yes. 24 x 7 hours. I have no life :O

I wonder why do I continue to spend hours after hours on gaming even when I know the consequences.

Maybe its because of the setbacks during the times I decided to spend my time wisely and do fruitful things. Most recent one was when I used 2 days devoted to trying to get a good photo for a photography competition, then got rejected because "you are not 18 as of 1st jan, so i hate you. go away." -_-

Heres a link to the stuff which I submitted if anyone is interested Its better that I show my photos than keep it in my comp.

Then again, maybe its because I've always been complacent and that I'm too lazy. I don't like making an effort for stuff because I know I am talented enough to convert little effort into alot of work. Yes I'm blowing my own horn again, but I know its both the truth and that it sounds wrong. =/

If I were to look back at my life, I'd say half of it was wasted. I have been gaming since 4. Yes. Four years old, if u wanted to even know what game I seriously started on, it was a adventure 2d game on a 486 which the name eludes me. Run around a series of levels and when u get out of it, u get back at its entrance and u play it over and over untill u decided to turn it off.

The 2nd game that I remember was Dangerous Dave on the 486, but still playable now. In any case. Who cares?

For your info: A 486 is an ancient computer made in 1989. Wikipedia's article

So I've been gaming half my life away. Games destroy lives, just as drugs do. I know I threw away alot of things just for my games. Precious moments of life that will never exist again. Youth, dreams, wishes, friends. I think I would need to put gaming on hold untill my A levels are over. Hmm, then theres NS too. Fook.

I still have time to set things back on track but I will need to break myself and shape up. Its like cracked ice, u can crack it and then freeze it again. The cracks may not seem to be there after freezing, but they are there, ready to cause the ice to shatter again. I don't know what I actually hope to achieve with this but if it can get me just that one thing I want in life, maybe its worth it. Perfection.

Anyway that seemed like an emo post, so just to let u all know, I'm alright but just thinking.

So heres some stuff I need to do when I get back

1. Check up on the mental conditions of my friends and catch up with them.
2. Do some blog quiz thingy that Harith and Aisa wanted me to do AGES ago.
3. Buy a new computer.
4. Blog.
5. Watch Code Geass R2 Episode 10
6. Remind myself to get Dino to return my cds he borrowed last year
7. Announce my return
8. Finally, realise that my prelims are just a week away, be terrified and pee my pants.

Oh heres a shoutout to Harith while I'm at it. I miss your blog, make it come back, please? :)