Lets see

I have been doing so much crap this month, I don't really know where to start. Lets see, I'm working now 8 hrs a day, I baked my first cake/cookie/stone tablet with friends (andrew & yu xian) and I can't remember stuff anymore.

Office work is horribly boring, all I do is photocopy passports, type numbers in the computer, raid the pantry for coffee and water and an occasional 2 min nap. I can't even tell what I like about this work other than the free coffee.

Hence I have a new motto and that is to not get fired as I seem very lazy to the other workers. This should be mainly because I take long toilet breaks, am burden on their coffee reserves and finish my work so fast that whenever people walk past my desk, I'm usually idling.



So um, when is it actually going to be my turn?
Or am I going to be last?

A day at work

"Eh outside got heavy showers!"

"Oh, Michael phelps what"

Yet another HD failure

-_- There goes nearly all my songs, movies, games and anime. Massive download time again soon.

Sometimes I feel like punishing myself

So many things I ought to do and I haven't done a single thing. I remember I told myself to be more hardworking and truth to be told, I'm still a bum drifting in school. Doing a proper calculation, I have probably only studied for a total of 7 days, 168 hours this year alone. I wonder how do other people study so consistently when its all probably a waste, but then that's how I view studying consistently.

I can't even find the reason to care about myself and yet I'm angry with myself for not being able to care about other things. I should get stuff done soon and stop only thinking about them. Maybe I should actually stop waiting for opportunities to come and make them myself instead, so many times wasted these opportunities. Fuck me.

Oh and LQ since you got the donut question right, you may pick anything for me to blog about. :)

Emo time is now

I have seen so many events unfolding around me, friends of mine have gotten what they want, this is because they have worked for it. Yet, I am unhappy that I had not achieved what I wanted. Maybe I should'nt feel this way, especially when I hadn't really worked hard for it, let alone even start trying to. Maybe its because of a feeling that I have that it would not succeed? Maybe thats how I have failed.

I see yet another friend who is trying his best, yet I thought nothing much of it. Now that I think about it, he should be thinking I suck. Ah well, I really do have to get started if not I'll be some old faggot soon.


I wrote this quite a long time ago when I was really feeling down and I stumbled upon it today, so I decided that I might as well post it up.