Something is amiss

And I can smell it, its just that one piece in the whole jigsaw, the most important piece to complete the picture, its missing. Either that or its just another barrier. I guess its just the nature of some people, sometimes we are really helpless when it comes to some matters, all that is needed is the co-operation from others, which most of the time, isn't given. Wee, I wonder where that piece is.

Blades of glory is damn lol show =)

O.o

Now that last post so wasnt me. I think I must be turning emo.

Holidays are for me

Yay, holidays have started.

Been typing shitlong blog posts recently, nearly all of them were complaints and rants. Ah well so heres my reflection for these stuffies. Recently had been under alot of stress, so much stuff just for me, just any typical over-slacker from a neighbourhood school. Oh wait, thats not typical.

Anyway I think I just should quietly adapt and not complain, complain so much and make myself more stressed and less happy, I don't want that. Maybe I should just try to find peace, joy and fun in this mess that I seem to be in, even if its too much to handle. Im forgetting who I really am, someone unique. Well, I have become rather anti-social-ish now, bleh. I hope i can find myself soon, I don't want to end up sad.

Why does PW suck so much?

Yea? Is it because of the topic? Because of the lack of proper briefings/failure to communicate? Misconception of the role that is supposed to be played? Inexperience?

Whatever the reason can possibly be, PW still sucks major dick. I think its a complete waste of time due to certain people incharge of all of this, PW shouldn't even be a major 10% admission to a University, why waste people's time when we get assured with a C or D, retarded piece of crapface. What makes an A grade? PROPERLY define it dammit.

No motivation at all to do anything anymore, so many negative comments from someone. So little co-operation from the rest, so much uncalled for and un-necessary waste of time and effort, why can't we just all listen to me earlier and prevent this bucket of shit from even being with us. I just feel like I'm filling the bucket with shit instead of flowers and candy and whatever else would be nice, even I can get constipated and I already am. Fuck this -_-.

Oh yes I'm sure I told myself I need to cut down on vulgarities sometime back, fuck it.

No Im not myself anymore

Had a large change in myself after graduating from East View, I miss that school, heh only some people know why, probably only 7. It could also be due to the fact that school, o levels and some personal stuff had ended and I probably can start playing more intensely? Or just do less work.

Then came the time when I entered MI for the first 3 months for PAE. Slight change happened during that time, found some fun people though they cant be compared to those in East View. Mostly nice people , except for some bastards who seriously have problems, the internet really condemns some people to such large extents.

Then came the time when I had to leave some friends for an education that I always thought i wanted, JC. Got into Innova and was seriously dissapointed, thought that TPjc would have accepted me, why did they have to increase the score by 1? Why did I not have a CCA, or rather why the hell was I informed that we could ask for our CCA points directly from the head only after the deadline was over. Why the toot that current chess club teacher didn't tell me he was unsuccessful with the cca points on his part, dammit some people.

Innova brought alot of stress upon me, but also allowed me to understand new things and meet nice and interesting people. The school isn't so unbearable after these few months already spent here, though I still wish I can kick a few old habits, up to you people to find out, or just ask me when you think Im in the mood to reveal these habits.

What really was grad night? Purpose? What has it done anyway? Good bad?

The worst and the best of this month

Haven't blogged for nearly a month, so many stuffs happening and I don't think I can really cope anymore, I probably need some cool-off time or counseling or something. I really wish it didnt turn out this way, so many decisions I regretted, so much regret over all my past actions, or the lack of actions taken.

Continuing from the last post
Had a NMA, New Media Arts (my cca) camp shortly after the last post. Quite nice, war games are fun. Nearly had a death during it, thank god it didn't happen. Then sleeping = YAY hard floor and no air con as promised.

Then had quite a whole series of depression, then the feeling of the opposite of depression over these 3 weeks, elation was it? Keep getting pissed over small things now adays, the stress is getting to me, not sure how long more can I keep this up.

Sports day on friday, yet another red patch on my hand appeared, its been quite a few years since the last appearence of new patches on my hand. =/ I wonder what causes this thingy.

Went out with some MI classmates to watch Spiderman 3 yesterday, omg yes we are slow.
Then we met up with the rest of them for dinner at marina bay, steamboat. Birthday boy still have to pay >.> Ah well at least it was quite a nice day yesterday, too bad theres still something wrong with me.

Stop using small letters to type stuff at the end of every post, it makes people want to read them more, do them a favour and just make it damn huge :)

I wish this things would quickly end, give me what I want, accomplish the goals, quick. Oh and I still want that.

NOOBS