I forgot to do this in the previous post

Well, theres an upcoming game from EA that actually wouldn't be a crappy job thats half heartedly done, like Tiberium wars. I refuse to call it C&C3 mainly because its a stupid remake done just to earn money. They spoilt the storyline.

Anyway EA produces crappish games and etc, but now heres one thats actually worth playing, and best of all! The game is free. Don't know if there there will be cash items or such.

Battlefield : Heroes



As cute as it can be, its actually a good advertisement, most adverts are formal and this is actually informal. Laugh at the mockery everywhere in the video.

Quotes

"Battlefield Heroes is a download for free, play for free, cartoon shooter, ... thats right, you don't visit a store, you don't enter your credit card details, and you don't download it on Bit Torrent. Its free"

Laugh at the piratebay mockery at 1.22

"Battlefield Heroes is a cartoon shooter, this is a type of shooter that focuses on fun, accessibility, and not getting shot in the face repeatedly by a swearing, ultra-skilled 15 year old boy who plays the game every day for 8 hours."

This is one of the main reasons people quit games, poor community spirit and lifeless gamers. Quoting a line from another blog

"I found this line very humorous as well, because that is exactly what Battlefield 2 has turned into, and I'm glad they recognize the problem and can admit it. I used to play Battlefield 2 a lot, but at the end of the day I come home and put it on to play a nice fun game, and want to throw something at a wall 30 minutes later."

At least EA is starting to make a smart move. I wish they did better for Tiberium wars. Oh and you retards who think u need to pay, just kill yourself please.

Anyway I found a little post that was kinda sad
Pfc. Jesse A. Givens drowned in the desert.
The irony and sadness. -_-

Just summing stuff up

This post is gonna be quite messy :)

Oh, just throw on a camisole

By Clarissa Oon
21st Feb, 2008

Its basically a newspaper article on the dressing sense of Singaporean girls and criticising them on the prostitute-ish dressing styles. Basically this once again brings up the point that the writer probably did not do any proper research, probably just saw one or two then made a judgement. How the fuck can she be hired and paid to write newspaper articles?

Then again, there are a few who seriously dress up like prostitutes, but hey, THEY ARE PROSTITUTES. Walk around at night in places and you can get China women walking up to you and saying prostitute lines. "You want me ten dollar?" "Condom Five dollah! No condom 15 dollah"
Fuck off and go back China la. Stupid China prostitutes, Singapore got enough foreigners already. Not that I hate foreigners, but the numbers now are absurdly high. -_-

Singaporeans, if I can chose an analogy, we are the hard disk of a computer, the foreign talent are the megabytes you add to your storage capacity. So your computer never hangs because you got enormous storage capacity," - MM Lee

Hah this is an interesting quote from Singapore's Ministor Mentor Lee. Since our foreign talent is the megabytes, Singapore the hard disk, we Singaporeans must also be megabytes. The foreign prostitutes? Must be viruses, come here spread fucking AIDS and other STDs. Then what about those China robots? SPYWARE! Stupid robots come here screw up our educational system and go back to China to work. -_-

I hate these listed types of foreign pollutants. Prostitutes, gangsters, inconsiderate tourists who litter our clean and green country. Yes, our CLEAN AND GREEN BEAUTIFUL CITY.
Anyway since MM Lee is involved in this post, its going to be a sensitive post. No insults towards our foreign TALENTS whom we so welcome to take over our jobs because they can provide better quality service and such. They also are willing to be hardworking and work for LESSER pay while doing BETTER work than us, aren't foreign talents good? :)



Heres a little TF2 video Isaac gave me and I tell you, one day I will be as pro as this guy, except that I will still probably have a life after reaching this skill level. Though I'm not implying this guy has no life.

Anyway I haven't really got much to post about this week. All my tests are finally over and I think I probably fail most of them. Me dead!

I haven't even made much progress on any of my goals, both the lifetime ones and the short term ones and I still wonder why am I not achieving anything. Silly me, I need to start first before I can achieve anything.
Just as the saying goes; Even a journey of 1000 miles starts with a single step. I wish my first step for my journey would be a step on the accelerator of a car. I don't like time, time makes people forget and I never want to forget the stupid things that happened during 2006 and 2007. They were one of the best years ever. =D

Obsession

Its an evil thing.

If you are obsessed with something, you have both desire and the intention for it.

Here's something interesting today from cell group.
Whats the difference between desire and intention?

Desire: Want, yearn to have
Intention: Willingness to act

Normally we want a change but we keep wondering why don't we change even though we know we need to change. Ahah! The problem is that there's only the desire to change, not any intention to change. So what we would need is intention but then there's also the problem of complacency. We all are complacent and don't like change, so why bother with change even if we desire to change? That's just being human, we are full of conflicting ideas.

Back to obsession.

When people are obsessed, they want something and feel that they must absolutely have it and thus they will do anything to get their goal. Its scary how obsession can ruin a person. Even simple obsessions can control anyone. Oh I want an A for mother tongue, but I didn't get an A! I want a distinction for mother tongue Oral but I got an A and a merit! Boohoo.

Ok maybe that's a little extreme. Something milder would be like "Mommy! Mommy! I want that sweet! I must have that sweet! Everyone else has tried that sweet once! MOMMY!"
What would happen when Mommy refuses? Little Billy over here will start wailing and begging for that sweet.

Its hard to see a mature person bounded by obsession, but it happens everywhere. "I NEED A GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND!" "I MUST HAVE THAT JOB POSITION" "I MUST HAVE THAT PERSON AS MY GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND"

Ok, those actually might be the immature people who are not acting right for their age.

Obsessions suck. After realising that you have no power to obtain that thing/person/job/whatever will normally cause depression or self-hate/pity. Only the truly matured and strong ones probably will be unaffected. As I would quote: "Life goes on"


Well, here's my story.

I walked out of "Young Immatures of Teenage" into the exhibition hall of a museum "College Life". I set my eyes upon a jewel. I desired its beauty and immediately thought of plans to steal it from that prized glass casing. The exhibition would last around a week. I had a lot of time to formulate the perfect plan, the plan would be so flawless, so smooth, no one else would have thought of it, there will be no opposition, the jewel will be MINE.

The next day, I entered the same exhibition hall. I saw the jewel once more in its spot and began to notice its surroundings, almost as if the jewel was looking at me and that I was too shy to return the gaze. I began to notice how light would shine on the jewel and the jewel reflecting it unto the walls, giving warmth to the whole room. I began making plans and hypothesizing as to how I would obtain that jewel and get away with it. The plan was set, it will be executed the following day during the exhibition itself, I would claim the jewel for MYSELF!

I went back home to make preparations. Hours upon hours were spent reciting the plan to myself. As I laid back to relax, I thought of the plan, the jewel and its wonderful green glow. I had already begun making preparations to tell everyone of how I obtained this special jewel. Oh the beautiful jewel, its price escaping my lips. After hours of wonderful daydreaming and excitement I finally retired for the night with ecstatic thoughts of the jewel being there waiting just for ME.

I entered "College Life" yet again, this time with the intention to remove the jewel from its prized glass casing, escaping through the roof, dodging the security and finally escaping in my helicopter. I skipped like a child, gleefully into the room and then I set my eyes upon the glass box where the beautifully crafted green jewel was.



NO!

The plan! Was it all for naught? WHERE IS MY JEWEL? I WANT IT!
I had loved and lost, all on the same day. - Li-Ann. The Leap Years(2008)

It scares me, the strength of that very obsession.

If there would be anyone with a crazier and stronger obsession, that someone would be a loser, had gotten rejected twice by females who looked like males, fell out of a JC just to go into poly. That person will also be hated by all, loved by none, get spit on by others and have his ass kicked, in other words, a complete loser with negative social status.

Then again, where could you find such a loser in the world? Surely no one could be so miserable and fucked up, or is there someone just as pathetic as this?

:)

PS: Any resemblances or similarities to anyone living or dead is PURELY coincidental and not meant to hurt anyone or anything. My ass.

Hey, I actually started this post at 12:00AM and finished typing it at 1:00AM exactly. Isn't that cool.

Chinese A level results

Recieved today. Guess what? Worst than my O levels
And knowing me, and knowing how Chinese is always my best subject. That surely doesn't bode well.

lol shit.
Written paper : U
Oral examination : U

Screw chinese. At least I'm not emotionally effected over this. I'm used to this.

I think I should put in more effort in studies now. CLB lessons after school 3 hrs a week i heard. Fucking waste of time if you ask me. I'd rather make sure my H2 all score A than study CLB. Why would I need to study for CLB? -_- Its not even gonna be difficult. Maybe it will be too easy. Whatever it is, I STILL MUST WRITE IRRITATING CHINESE ESSAYS. THAT SUCKS.

This is crappy. I had been elated on Tuesday and Wednesday 4,5th march , Then suddenly recieved a huge shock on Thursday 6-3-08, then heres another shock on Friday 7-3-08. -_-

Is this just to balance the happiness I had? Or so I thought.

Hey I'm updating frequently

Its probably a bad sign, I got too much time on my hands.

Screw stress and relations with people. People are just complicated messes of problems. Watching relations is like watching a mad man breaking tables and chairs. Its all the same, stuff gets broken, hearts, hopes, friendships.

Stress sucks. I hate it when it gets dumped on me.

I have to experience yet another shocking news. I'm don't feel like announcing it on the blog. So here it goes in crypto-form.

A first impression seems to define a person but yet, it doesn't, it could be a mask. That mask can even be really beautifully crafted but yet what is underneath? Something nicer? Something that needs to be hidden?
Jobs too do not define a person. No matter how shocking it is, who knows? So what if you work in a frowned upon line of work? Its still money, easy money too. What does it say about you? Does it even say anything at all? Not all the time.
I think I'm bothering too much about something that isn't even related to me. I guess its a stupid thing to be bothered by this. Hey, beautifully crafted masks on sale are always sold out fast. You can't be choosy, just get a nice one and make do.

:(
I hate discoveries - JQ

Reassurance

I'm not actually emo, previous "emo" posts were just for fun, for those that worry about me, I'm actually ok. I was just posting whatever comes to mind at that point of time.

So I'm reassuring you, my blog readers that
1. I'm not emo
2. I will never cut my wrists, its stupid.
3. I'm still straight and loving it.
4. You all are still noobs.

Have a nice day, thank you for choosing this fine service.
JQ airlines will always be the number one choice for noobs.

:)
Note: I've found somethings, in particular, 2.

Life is screwed

I think I'm just screwing up my own life currently. Wee. I'm just too laid back about studying, cannot even bother to study even if I have a whole lot of free time. So far I've haven't passed any test this year and I think that if I continue at this rate, I might as well just withdraw now since its kind of wasting time, but hey!

I'm still wanting to go for uni right? Right now, I don't even know the answer already. I don't even know why I bother, I persue knowledge, give practical solutions to people who need answers, actually help people in ways, but yet I fail at applying them to myself. Why am I such a noob? :( How many people have I helped? around 5. How many times have I let that slip away from myself? probably more than 5. I wonder why can't I just do it.

Hmm, I can only look from far and observe. Why must the world be so complicated. Stupid side effects of the advancements in technology, blahblah -_- This is so crappy. Interconnected-ness but yet so disconnected. So close yet so far, I really hate it, as if God was playing a prank on me for the 3rd time.

Emo-ness. Stupid trend thats so contagious, I refuse to fall for it, I only will walk by it and laugh at it in the face. But can I really do so? Its already begun taking its toll on me. I guess I thought that I'd already come a long way from my past, but have I really done so? I now think I haven't, I'm just a silly guy who is getting upset over silly things.

Haiz. This time really sad already. Bad news aside. Heres the good news, I still won't cut my wrists! :)

Life has its ups and downs, cheer up for the better day will come, someday, sometime. Far from now, after you've forgotten this. - JQ